no regrets, just love

I just told my mom my choices, she looked and me and said “Is that what you want?“ 

I shrugged. I don’t even know. 

But whatever. What’s done is done. I’d just wait to see for the results. 

The thought of uni application kinda freaks me out. :( :( 

Will someone advise me what I should do? 

I’ve never been so lost before. Everyday I wake up, thinking about the unfinished work that I couldn’t complete. Technically, that isn’t work. It’s something that helps to improve the company’s process. 

I can be graded on that IF (and only if) I finish it.

But I haven’t. 

My marks are at risk. I’m really sad cos I even brought my company’s laptop home to do the blooody macro. Slept at 3am to solve it. I can’t think of the logic, I can’t do the codes. I cannot code. 

:(

I’m really upset. I’m sure I did more. I’m sure I deserve more. I guess I’m just gonna put my efforts down to the drain… 

Until now… I’m still trying to solve my macro error. I know I don’t have much time left, but I will try. 

But so what if I try? My efforts will be gone to waste. 

Sigh.